I woke up on January 1, 2013 with not really a resolution for a plan of action, but more of a mindset change. I decided that I am totally content being single. And I am worth pursuing. It isn’t my job to make sure whatever boy I’m interested in remembers who I am and that I’m available. It just isn’t worth my time to prove to him that I’m worth his time because for the rest of that relationship, I’d have to prove to him that he made a good decision. I’ve done that enough in my lifetime and it only ever led to disappointment and heartbreak. This is my new resolution.
No longer am I with baited breath
waiting for you to notice me.
The fate of my heart now indifferent
to the plucking of petals;
A bobber plunging down to the ‘he loves me not’
or floating back up to the ‘he loves me.’
At last an anchor that has been there all along
My youth and insecurity wouldn’t let me see.
