Day 19/31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes 2017: BRAVE

Day 19

I used to be brave.  I used to snowboard and hike mountain peaks and enjoy rollercoasters.  And then I became a mother.  The most exhilarating activities I enjoyed seem freaking insane to me right now.  This week, my husband and I went on a trip to the NC mountains with our 16 month old. We visited Grandfather Mountain, and up at the top is a swinging bridge one mile up.  We went across that no problem, not without some butterflies in my stomach, but doable.  But looking at the people who all congregated at the tippy top of that rock, I had zero interest.  Maybe if I wasn’t four months pregnant, or a mom, or a wife, I would have climbed up there.  So, maybe it isn’t that I’m not brave anymore.  Maybe it’s that I feel the weight of responsibility of me staying alive that causes me not to take risks.  Funny enough, I don’t miss those things, at least right now.   My life is still full of wonder and joy because I’m pregnant, a mom, and a wife.

Brave

About miccahmarie

I got my first Diary when I was 10. I couldn't wait to write in it at night to divulge all of the details of my day onto paper with my turquoise pen. I now find that writing has become therapeutic for me. I need time to think and sort out what is going on inside and often when I'm most emotionally heightened is when I write most creatively. My years of journaling are a compilation of written out prayers as well as lamenting poems. Now as a wife and mother, my perspectives have changed, as I reflect on who I was and who God is making me to be.
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9 Responses to Day 19/31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes 2017: BRAVE

  1. Pingback: 31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes: 2017: Day 3/31 CREATE | miccahmarie

  2. Pamela Escarsega says:

    Oh Miccah, this is beautiful. I love your heart and your ability to express it in print.

  3. You are wise Miccah! Isn’t it funny how God takes away certain desires when it is not important in our lives? Have a blessed weekend. If I miss your FMF post today, I will read it over the weekend. XoJulie

  4. As a mom you take different risks – of the 💓

  5. Marie says:

    Hi, Miccah! Visiting from the FMF Facebook page.

    You know what? I think being a mom is pretty darn brave. I heard someone say (can’t remember who) that having kids is like tearing your heart into pieces and letting it float around outside of yourself. Sounds pretty courageous to me!

    • miccahmarie says:

      Hi Marie! Thank you for stopping by and for your encouragement. That’s absolutely how it feels. A little piece of my heart incarnate is being exposed to the world. It’s rewarding and terrifying all at the same time!

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